The Beginning (Pt. 2)

 

I was lost. To say I was scared was an understatement. After you graduate, you get a big kid job, and that's it. But that was no longer the case. I couldn't help but feel guilty, "What if I just didn't say anything? Just stuck it out?"  

Well, I can say with complete confidence that I am so glad I didn't settle in my career. Giving up a job with benefits and a 401k was difficult for others to understand.

I quickly went from the girl who was following the steps to success, to the greedy millennial that needs it all now. At least that's what people told me. They would tell me that as a negative - but I see it as a positive. 

I do want it now. I worked extremely hard in college, and I have no problem in challenging the idea that new grads aren't worth anything more than staring at excel sheets and doing the work that no one wants to do. To me, that's not fulfilling, and if that means I have to go on my own to get the career I want, then so be it.

I wish I could say it was entirely my call, but as you read from my previous post, it most definitely was not. What I didn't know while I was crying in that stairwell is that they gave me the push I couldn't give myself. 

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So, I got to it. I had no time to waste. I needed to create a brand and I needed to get clients. It wasn't just things falling into place, although on the exterior, I did my best to make it seem like that. There was trial and error, rage, immense sadness, guilt, regret, triumph, failure, and success. But more on that later.

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This was it. This was the beginning.

 
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